Set against these hardest hours
Anger paled, for in this fear
The theft of privacy
We all see it break sometimes
See it tear us apart
That which left behind
Screams out loud this night
So much is asked in silence
Expect not and you'll find
Thousand miles from the nearest truth
Rotating, entangled
I continue not to heal
Another no-night
Awaits its turn
So I call upon my freecard
To postpone
If time was one with many faces
Which one would call to me?
Where all our paths in one now end
That with the power to gather the mislead
Now will lead them all astray
So push it ever further
To unsuspecting dark
Build that second layer
For the hours to take fast
A rest from the giving
Like a heart between beats
Greater than the need for community
The need for the right solitude
Come to know
That an outrage is inevitable
Through many try
An escape is unsuccessful
In the midst of a nerve-night
The victim of soulkill
True self is mere torture
Death rides these nerves
Another no-night
Awaits its turn
So I call upon my freecard
To postpone.
Gentle storm
Thundering silence
Inferior force
Uncontrolled calm
Vital unlike
Logic chaos logic
The tone of which his birth ascend
The beat that of a heart descend
Repeating in the infinite
An insight made it clear
Order stormed the surface
Where chaos set the norm
Had there always been balance?
Surely not
Therein lies the beauty
It was solid
Yet everchanging
I was different
Yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
It was solid
Yet everchanging
Oh, it was different
Oh, yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
I starve myself for energy
The song around his soul will bend
The notes that in this hole will melt
Crawl out of science
A dreamland if you dare
Disorder clawed the boundaries
We're ordered to stand clear
Was it always different
Never the same?
Therein lies the beauty
It was solid
Yet everchanging
I was different
Yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
It was solid
Yet everchanging
Oh, it was different
Oh, yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
I starve myself for energy
As there were no witnesses
There was nothing to be told
As nothing could be grasped
The story could unfold
Superimposed on the elements of anger
Fear, anxiety, hate, despair, remorse
So break from all that fear hold fast
Exposed now turn to all you lack
Let echoes be the answers
Return from all the screams
Wordless now the last attack
So silent it hurts to listen
Was it always solid
To never change?
Therein lies the beauty
It was solid
Yet everchanging
I was different
Yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
It was solid
Yet everchanging
Oh, it was different
Oh, yet the same
So I starve myself for energy
I starve myself for energy.
There were words of lust in these arms
Arms of the stranger
And there in silence though were words
Words of no milder
So in thinking of that madness
That ravage the thoughts in the loneliest of hours
I resist without control (6 x)
The demand I get from excellence
The void I felt from answering
Not only an addition
It generated need
In these endless nights of freezing
My weight on the other side
The other side
I resist without control
I resist without control
I resist without control
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
I resist without control
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Claws that set in sleeps December
Let loose on the verge
Talks to me as strangers once did
The tone was set for winter
Sweet uncontrol
Beyond proportion
Oh, into the night
So strike me deeper
I resist without control
I resist without control
I resist without control
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns of uncontrol
Feel the thorns
The death that craved no life
Now ended
In return, in return
Drifting uncontrolably
Within the night
Sweet uncontrol
Beyond proportion
Oh, into the night
So strike me deeper.
Outsmart the fever
And take us farther from
The killing life in capsules
A life that can't belong
If I wake up dead to the world
With the helm at my command
The reaching out of this
Face tomorrow in the 11th hour
Beckon closer
Now as nightfall sends its grace
Cue to enter the insatiable ideal
Slam it shut, but the portal pounding lingers
What is it, is time undone
I cannot falter in the security of labour
Was I supposed to believe?
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Where my life
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Went the half mile
Wondered when the resolution would come
Life became too solid
Diluted by the essence of denial
Caught in fire's eye
The self and the filter that is I
My lip was venom
Words formed in my mouth
And hid beneath the tongue
Never to be
Never to be seen
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Where my life
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Was I supposed to believe
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Where my life
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
My life
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Where my life
Where did I sign
Did I miss
The auction
Where my life went by the club.
Faintly arisen
Tenderly torn
Dreamlike decision
Unconsciously born
Firm in conviction
Yet tempt me they can
Deny me of trust
And a demon I hide
A drive to be less than the fortunate
A dream in the casket of Eden
Crave that which you do not desire
Cling tightly to your deepest fear
I rose the greatest monuments
Again and again
I bear the greatest treasure
Of time and a word
Treason spilt on the loneliest of graves
Desperation dealt the losing hand again
Wherein lie the purpose of the day?
Is there return in sadness?
Does your ceiling differ much from mine
Where we see each other
Here in this light
Is that pillow more than a frame
That holds the chaos fast?
Now his hand a fist
Gain control
Silence fell and eyes now widened
Filling up the strength collapsing
Capable of the ending froze in the tracks
Brought to a bitter halt
On the floor it seems the
The steps are showing
Left a print just like it did in me
What has been and what will be
Never care 'cause I was in between
As I said with one foot in loneliness
You hide here in me.
Upon our evening when the sun fired blanks
There rode the sickness out of our sight
Carried torches burned out long before it's time
Among these ruins where our love has to be found
Ambition falters when no better is to be known
Cling to the unfounded pride
Death to our belonging
And our ministry of two
Set the higher standard
And to a greater fall descend
Slaves to one another
And to others be it not
Soothing be temptation
Force the conscience to a halt
Caused a high vibration
A tender light to be part of you
The two-way escape
Death to our belonging
And our ministry of two
Set the higher standard
And to a greater fall descend.
What late forgotten nights
To emptiness has given
And now November morning will be taken asunder
The shovel stained with dirt in the hours of belonging
Dug into the undiscovered of a life, a pest, a plague
Falling back into the arms, no never
Admitting to a life alone, no
Claiming there are sparks inside
Outside looking back, no
The lie never stopped
Cling to the wave it cried and onward to the night
Expecting not and nothing in the presence of a lie
The deeper that it dug the more now had to go
Surrender was a fact and the room was decorated
The lie never stopped
What late forgotten nights
To emptiness has given
The strangers, may they come
In ignorance's disguise
So in the dark walking
To leave the last of times
Knee-deep in desperation
To fill the gap behind
Boldly thread the night forever
November thoughts are right, oh never
Taken from the fall, no
Frightened by the key, but the trail behind the house
Felt compelling and new, the lie never stopped
Found at loss for words, now words aren't enough
Someone told, a vacancy was open
Someone laughed, the silence here was broken
Dug up to make room
The room which you furnaced and graced.
Waiting for the day to end
Though silence came too late
I turn my eyes inside
Close the lids
Deny the world to enter
'Cause I'm turning the desires down
Again rose the monstrous
Of hours in between
Taint the thought
The trauma born inside
All thoughts that you defined
Tread the light again
Take the pain away
Feels as though
Time as tears
Never seem to end
'Cause I'm turning the desires down
Again rose the monstrous
Of hours in between
Taint the thought
The trauma born inside
Oh, inside
Oh, inside
Oh, inside
Hers, I'd hold you
And I tried to make sure
These treasures that I hide
These treasures that I hide
'Cause I'm turning the desires down
Again rose the monstrous
Of hours in between
Taint the thought
The trauma born inside
'Cause I'm turning the desires down
Again rose the monstrous
Of hours in between
Taint the thought
The trauma born inside.
Where were the eyes that followed
How could they've found?
These misery's merchants
Struck the message deep
"We have come to stay"
Dogs fled there in the dark of his path
Feared him as once they all did
Like a ghost in daylight
On an overcrowded street
He wishes
To be something he is not
Like a shadow at midnight
That originates in air
He wishes for release
But deep in the back it had caught him
The anchor they threw at his life
Oh, these misery's merchants
Dragged through life as a burden
Rushed off to his cage of glass
To open the single window
A means of escape, out in the open
There are still holes in these walls
Puking information into the unwanting
Probing the last hope of defence
So he plugged up the holes
And shut the outside window
In doing that, madness paid a visit
And then suddenly in mid-thought
Escape was a factor and as from inside
Pushing out were words
Through fingers came uncovering
Revealing the truth of him there in the dark
Skin began to crawl as they neared him
Is all pleasure release?
Oh, these misery's merchants
Saw the message clear
"It is time to pay"
Dogs fled there in the dark of his path
Feared him as once they all did
Like a ghost in daylight
On an overcrowded street.
Neither here nor there in our unity of twine
Solitary sanity, traded in for life
Once we crawled into the artificial night
All was left and I arrived on your time
On your time
There in the collision
Wish answers could arrive
Was I kept up for this?
Did the physical emotion
Break the fall of sleep?
I'd never thought of things that you would say
Could never tell if what you said were lies
It's in here eating
It's down there drinking
Be with me, not against me
I bear with it, love against me
I've never known if there was enough time
Could never tell if it was done just right
I've never known
I've never known
I've never known
If there was enough time
Could never tell
Could never tell
Could never tell
If it was done just right
An icicle thrust
To soothe the disorder
Between the eyes
Where the well is the deepest
The deepest well
I've never known if there was enough time
Could never tell if it was done just right
So unease carried words
That spoke of no matter
Was I held here for this?
Did the path of devotion stay from what you felt?
I've never seen things here in this light
Could never tell if your touch was deeper than skin
Once I thought that what no time can heal
Is here in me, but time proved me wrong
Deeper still toward an outward pride
No more lies, I'm here on your time.